It seems that the majority of my life has always been planned, always a routine, a set thing. I always knew where I was going, what I was doing. There haven't been many points in my life where I didn't have some sort of concrete direction in motion or routine. I've always kind of known what to expect. By the time I was in Kindergarten, I was telling people I was going to attend Sumner for high school. I went to the same elementary/middle school all the way up until I went to Sumner. Each year I could anticipate what classes I would take next. I did dance and gymnastics at Byrd's for 12 years. I learned a lot of routines there. I was with someone for over three years and could expect what dates would be like, what we would do on the weekends, and even had a good night routine with him. For 4 summers ever since I started working, I knew I would be working at WYCO. It was all routine.
Right after the break up, our cat started to get sick and have problems. She was getting old. I knew I would soon lose her as well. I got news one of my favorite shows of all time, Desperate Housewives, was going to have their last season. That would be gone too. I knew big changes in my life were ahead. As time has gone on and I finally watched the last episodes of the show tonight, it was the cherry on top, the thing that would confirm what I was going to blog about next. This feeling of change and not knowing what to expect.
Summer has definitely been showing me things. Right now I have no routine. I no longer work at WYCO and don't have a job at the moment. I don't have that boyfriend to hang out with a lot over the summer. I don't have a summer reading assignment like I used to while at Sumner. No recital to prep for. There is no routine anymore. I don't have classes, work, meetings and deadlines to fill that. This is such a foreign thing for me. As of right now, it is not until August when I have things picking back up for school. Until then, I am sort of in this waiting stage of life. Remember last blog, I mentioned I am working on my patience? Well, waiting takes patience too. Again, I am getting a lot of practice!
But so far this summer has been great. I have been seeing so many people. I have been able to spend a lot of time with family, friends, and visit with others that I haven't seen in years. I have gotten to enjoy Tuesday family dinners which I miss all the time while at college. My oldest nephew, Logan's voice is changing and he is entering that preteen stage. I got to go to my brother's house and watch episodes of Fantasy Factory with him. I spent the past three days with my niece, Grace. I feel like I am watching myself when I was little as she tells me to watch her do gymnastics moves. She is six and is so smart. SHE read ME a bed time story the other night! I went out last night in Emporia with my sister. It was just us. A girl's night. I have spent a lot of time with really good friends and friends I don't get to see very often. I have had good conversations with them as well. I met a friend I had known since my sophomore year of high school for the first time in person. I visited Sumner and got to visit with a few teachers while I was there. I have been running into and seeing so many people from my past. I feel like there is a reason for it. It has been a reminder that things have changed and that I am getting older. It has also been an amazing reminder of the beautiful people that I have been so blessed to have in my life. It makes me think and my mind explores as I am visiting with all these people and learning what they are doing in their lives. I feel like God has put me in this position of no routine, no job, no deadlines, meetings, and everything else so that I have this time to really spend time with my family, friends, and all the other people that have been in my life at some point. I have definitely been savoring it and I have been thankful to have the time and opportunity to spend time with them.
At this point, I am just trying to get used to this up in the air idea. Of not really knowing what I am doing next week and the week after. I have been learning to have faith that things will work out. It takes time and of course it always seems to come down to me being patient! Until then, I am just taking the time to cherish the moments with wonderful people.
Sparkle & Shine,
Rachel
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| My visit to Sumner with Marcus. Us with Mrs. Brown. |
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| Logan & I. He is pretty much taller than me now! |
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| The bed time story Grace read to me! Just Go To Bed! |
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